The other day I just felt bad and so frustrated because I couldn't be there for some of my friends. I was just annoyed that when my friends needed me, I wasn't there for them, while when I needed to talk to someone, they were there. I felt like I wasn't a good friend. I felt like I was just a user...
You see our internet at home has tendencies to not work at all when we need them the most. For example, during 2nd Term last school year, we didn't have internet at all! It was really difficult to watch dokyu videos for Filipino. And researching for our English paper proved quite a chore too.
Anyway, our internet last night was... uncooperative. Couldn't think of a much more apt term. I was talking to 3 friends of mine. 2 friends of mine have already started to talk about their problems, the other one was just about to share with me his problem. Suddenly, my Yahoo!Messenger disconnects and I couldn't connect anymore.
I felt like a failure. I just hated myself for the 40 minutes that should've been spent on conversing with the 3 of them about their problems. When I was able to go online again, they weren't online anymore. I was really mad at myself.
Then a friend of mine goes online. We talk then he shares about his problem. He's not part of the initial 3 ones. And I just thought to myself, maybe this is God's way of making me feel less mad at myself. To give me a friend right now who has problems.
We were talking about it and I realized, there's nothing I could do to make him feel better. I was just there. Listening to him. Couldn't seem to cheer that friend of mine whatever I say. When he was about to go and sleep, I apologized since I couldn't make him feel any better. But he told me it was just fine, that me providing company is enough.
And I guess that's how things are. We won't always be able to help our friends solve their problems, but at the least, we can provide company. Listen to them. Be there for them.
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